I will not:

Scream.
Utter that name.
Become like him.

Log for: Game Over

"I already told you once, my name is Sylar. Say it."

"Say it."

I refuse to give him the satisfaction. I will not ever utter that name again.

I was careless. I was foolish. I've always been a little reckless, but I should have known better in this case. I will never know what made me think that I would be okay, with what I was doing. He's a challenge. He's my equal. I haven't felt like I was matched this well since I was just out of the academy. He can give me a run for my money, and I love it. I didn't even find the location of Nakamura's sword. I might have to call Sydney after I get out of hospital. The bastard broke my nose. I've got stitches in a few places. But mostly, it's my credibility I'm worried for. It will work out, though. I have confidence.

I gave up Nakamura's secret. I told Gray that he wasn't dead, hoping he would spare my life. I didn't know what else to do. He didn't want to hear anything else from me. I will never forgive myself.

"I don't care about Nakamura. I only want one thing."

"Scream for me."

"SCREAM!"

Never.

Log for: Let's Play a Game

There was no reason that Gray's chains should have been that weak. That should never have happened, no matter how angry I made him.

"Am I terrifying now? Are you scared now? I could kill you right here, right now, without my power. I could take your life and toss it aside like it was nothing."

His words echo in my mind. It's true. He could easily have killed me. He had his chance. But he didn't take it.

I've been trying to get into his head. To understand him. To try and get the information I want out of him. I think I'm succeeding. I must be, because I'm hating myself for my conclusions. I'm beginning to understand him. I see where he's coming from. It makes sense. I wish I could have that sort of conviction.

Log for: Unprofessional

Gray is crazy. I knew that going into this. But there's no accounting for some things...

He wants to make it personal, all right. It's personal. He has no idea how badly I want to kill him. None. It would be doing the world a favour. I need to tell Jude. I need to tell him about me. About Gray. About what I can do. About what he's done.

Give me one good excuse, Gray. One that no jury will ever convict me for.

Log for: Lies and Lists

Mohinder has given me some ideas, and a list of names. I have to interrogate Gray again. This time, without my partner.

Log for: It's Really Not a Tumor

Gray was stalking Suresh. He came up behind me and pressed a gun to my back. I've been in that sort of situation before, but after my last vision... I almost fainted again just hearing his voice. That monster. I told him I didn't have an ability. I told him I'm dying. I'm not sure whether he really bought it, or if he just decided I wasn't worth the effort. If Suresh hadn't been there... I'm glad he was there.

God, it was therapeutic to beat the piss out of Gray. It made it worth it to let Suresh alibi me by nearly breaking my nose.

Log for: The Time Traveler and the Psychometer

I can't even begin to fathom any of this. This Hiro Nakamura... He scares me and gives me hope all at once. I don't know what to do. What to think. I'm excited. I'm terrified.

"You are a hero," he told me. A hero. Me. He says I'm not crazy. He says I have abilities. He has abilities.

Gabriel Gray has abilities.

Sylar.

Fucking Parkman. Where is that son of a bitch?