Log for: Meet the Oscillating Unit

"Clock's ticking."

The grandfather clock. In my bedroom. She saw it. She... I'm going to die. He's going to kill me.

I had myself so convinced I could beat him. I was convinced there was hope. I shouldn't talk like this. That woman, Desiree, she and Peter say that it's not set in stone. But... I'm scared. How can I beat this? If I just... never go back to my apartment? He'll just find me somewhere else. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. I'm so, so scared.

He has Mohinder. He has Molly. It's only a matter of time.

"You had real pretty eyes."

Log for: General Freaking Hospital

I met Peter Petrelli today. He's nice. Very nice. He also took on my ability. Another Psychometer. With all my flaws.

It confirms my hypothesis. If Gabriel Gray takes me... If he takes my power, it will be his undoing. One vision. One good vision is all it will take. He'll be down and the others will have their chance. Even if I die, I'll still win.

I told Peter everything. About what I see and feel. About my thoughts. They aren't my thoughts. They are my thoughts. They are. My own. I could kill him. I could do just like Gray does. I could get inside that head of his and take his abilities. All of them. I could be unstoppable. I could kill Gray. I could be the one who comes out on top. I could be the best. I am the best. Gabriel Gray is nothing but an insignificant little cockroach. They are all nothing more than a Not mine. Just... echoes. Slivers of thought left in my mind. Peter's right. I'm better than that. I've got the determination to make sure that Gray never gets what he wants from me.

I will not:
Scream.
Utter that name.
Become like him.

Parkman.
Where do I begin? He's... He was in my head. Speaking. I knew he could do it. Or I suspected. Knew? I don't know what I know and what my visions have told me anymore. But I know he made me see things. I saw him with his gun out. And then nothing. I saw it. He'll really kill me if I don't keep my distance from Mohinder and Molly. I'm going to have to convince Mohinder to teach me how to do my own injections. I need to stay on top of this. And I need to stay away from him. For both our sakes. I need to stay away from Parkman. If he were anybody else, I'd keep him close. Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer. Except when your enemies can read your mind.
I hope Molly is okay.

I was almost surprised that Nathan came to see me. He wants to spare me any more pain, I know that much. He doesn't want to give me this false hope if he can't... heal me. Whatever that means. Claire. Her blood will fix everything. It can give me back my No. They aren't even mine to regain. What is wrong with He's a sweet man. In his own way. Ways different than his brother. Very different. Peter comforts. But Nathan makes me feel safe. I know Nathan has it in him to do whatever needs to be done to do whatever job he sets out to do. Peter... He might hesitate. Peter is the one who stands by and inspires. He's not a one-man army. He should be! He's squandering his gifts. He's not worthy of

Ed was the surprise of the night. I got my job back, but none of that matters now. I'm pleased he brought me the gin. He may have me pegged, he knows I don't let my guard down, but the morphine is a factor he hasn't had to consider yet. I hope he'll buy it. I have to keep him close to me. Have to keep him believing I want him. That I want him to want me.
Would I shag him? In a heartbeat. To make him believe that I'm stuck on him. Girls aren't nearly as threatening when they're lovesick, are they? No. They're easily manipulated. I'm counting on Edward Boone to be One Of Those. Go on ahead, use me.... partner.

Log for: This Was Not a Date

It's settled. I'm giving up on Mohinder. He's adorable and he's sweet and all of those things, but... If I hit him any harder with what's obvious to anybody else, one of us is just going to end up hurt.

Parkman may annoy me, but I'm not about to carry on with his flatmate just out of spite. Hopefully this will ease things. Parkman and I are better off as friends than merely co-workers. For various reasons.

I still don't fully trust him.

Log for: The Telephone Game

Oh, shit. He's out.

Log for: Houston, We Have a Problem

Fucking Parkman! I can't believe he's making me stay in here! I can live with him getting the promotion. He's a damn good cop. But I can't believe Holcombe gave him my cases. I can't believe she would partner him with Jude! He's my partner!

It's not that I want to see Judah held back, but I don't want to be left behind...

No. No. No. This is not important. None of this is important. What's important is that I get out of this room before Gabriel Gray shows up. He'll kill to get to me. And I can't place the people in this hospital in danger.

I've seen what Parkman becomes. I've seen the agenda he adopts in the future. I can't trust him.

Serve and protect.